i really didnt want things to become like these.
but all these bottled up feelings has to leave.

i had always thought that no matter how hurting ur words were
no matter how insensitive ur actions were,
deep down u regard me as ur gd fren.
but this time, my belief in that is really really shaken.

over the course of our friendship i have tried my best to be there for u, shown care and concern
but it looks like i mean absolutely nth to u at all

most of the time you only come when u are in need of someone.

during times when u are angry at me i'm the one who always have to be apologetic.
yet during times when im angry at u, not a word of appology comes out and u always expect me to become normal immediately.

when u're angry at me, suddenly it gives u the right to just ignore me and build this huge wall arnd yourself.
if u think tat these past few days i've been "trying too hard"
then u are quite correct.
but i'm trying hard to because u are my fren and i dun want to lose this friendship.

i cant keep on giving and just have u keep on taking.
a friendship is meant to be a 2 way street.
and in this one, i'm always the one who has to make the all the effort.

it really hurts me alot when u act like this.
its not the 1st time alr.
but do u care?
well, if u do then it doesnt show at all.

i'm really really sick of feeling so lousy and sad over this alr.
im sick of having to be the one that keeps trying his best to sustain the friendship.

i thought that our friendship will last at least till after poly
but i guess....
life is just that unpredictable eh?

what am i to u exactly,
i'm a human, not a saint.
i have feelings too u know.
and if u want to keep this friendship then i suggest u play ur part.

if not.
i'll be damn hurt.
but i will get over it. be it sooner or later.



its hard to believe that things can change so much in just 1 day.